11.01.04

I wish Id said how amazi

Posted in Uncategorized at 11:24 pm by coldclimate

I wish Id said how amazing you looked before the ball. I wish Id told you ow proud I was. I wish Id bought your flowers, even once, not becuase you expected them, or even really liked them, but because youd have loved it and I should have realised. I wish Id not said a mllion and one of the hings that I said. I wish Id not bee so pig headed at times. I wish Id told you that you are at your most adorable when you first wake up. I wish Id known what I felt. I wish I wasnt so averse to public displays to affection.

Maybe I should remember to stop wishing and just bloody do it next time.
I wish there was going to be a next time.

Theres a whole world of

Posted in Uncategorized at 11:22 pm by coldclimate

Theres a whole world of things going on out there, and sometimes I get the feeling Im missing out on lots of them because Im really bad at prioratising. I put a lot of credence on things that I shouldnt find important. I like going to bed a decent time (the irony of not being abale to sleep once I get there is never lost on me.) I like being at work on time (or early) even tough I like being in bed in the morning even more. I like leaving clubs slightly early (I hate being so tired I can hardly stand and knowin Ive still got an hours of sos journey to get home). I like dancing when nobodies watching (and have a sneeky suspicion that Im a bit better at it when Im not self couoncious eg. in my kitchien on saturday afternoons). I like to think I like dancing like nobodies wathing, but it doesnt work ouot that way - i now people are waching and I play to it badly and that makes me look foolish. I like messing around in kitciens - but I really like crappy take out too! I like ironing, I find it strangly enojyable.

I dislike lots of things I should look like. I hate being really drunk. I should like it - thats what most people my age seem to spend their time rying to achieve, but I hate it. I fall over, I always end up feeling sick, I fall over, Im not a good drunk. I dont get aggressive, but I say things I dont mean, and act childishly and this is not god for me. I dislike flirting; Im really bad at it and I get embarrased, and then it all goes wrong. I find it ard to get the balance between slighty quirky and more-interesting-that-the-millions-of dull-people-Who-exist (sooo many clones walk this world). I come across as odd.

Maybe i am odd? Maybe I just like to think Im odd without actually having a cause (like being goth, or gay, or living on a rock.) I like a range of things that I sholdnt do. I like baking. I like making wine and flavoured spirits. I like eatting foods which most people dont (and possibly more importantly I like the fact they think its odd! Chrispy pigs ears anyone?) I have a desire to look fashionable, but I hate spending money to do it. Id like to think I didnt care what other people thought about me - but I spend all my time worrying about it. I was once told that I pigeon hole myself and then spend all my time trying to be that thing when I should just relax and live my life as I like. Maybe I should.

I suddenly started wondering why exacly Im writing this? Im not sure If anybody actually reads it - all of my appeals to people to click on links and email me if they read it fail. I hear mention of The Blog occationally in conversations with friends occationally - but I doubt that they read each word. I suspect they link hunt to find comic crap Ive run across on Tinternet. Sometimes quie a lot of my personal thought get plonked on to it. I edit lots of it down too - but enough stuff gets on here to readme like a book occationally. I was once wrned about putting too mch personal stuff on here (wise words from one of the few men I actually listen to), but somehow shouting this stuff at the world kinda helps me get it clear in my head.

Bejesus - typing on train journeys should be made some kind of theropy - maybe I should market it?? Funnily enoug I was once told that one of my most annoying habbits was I always said how i could do thinks better or make money out of them. Maybe I should stop?

I went looking for a fri

Posted in Uncategorized at 11:13 pm by coldclimate

I went looking for a fridge and here is the most horrible thing on ebay Kate Bush Fridge magnet

With these stunning effo

Posted in Uncategorized at 10:42 pm by coldclimate

With these stunning efforts - firstly my 18litres of wine that I have brewing in my bahroom,

and a man being very silly at the climbing wall this afternoon and hanging by his feet!

Impresssive stuff there people, arent you glad im sharing this with you

TinyApps.Org full of sma

Posted in Uncategorized at 10:25 pm by coldclimate

TinyApps.Org full of small fun!

Im terrorfied at the ele

Posted in Uncategorized at 9:37 pm by coldclimate

Im terrorfied at the election result. Is neo-conservaism ruling for another 4 years a good idea kids? These are power hungry, dillusional, autocraic evil doers!

Will write more when I have time to consentrate. Please dont let them do anyhting in the meantime.

Well, first John Peel, a

Posted in Uncategorized at 7:05 pm by coldclimate

Well, first John Peel, as original a man as I have ever known of, and now Fred Dibner, the finest “real world” man I know of.

Fred Dibner, for those who have not run into his genius before, was a hero to men. A steeple jack who took down towers by hand (an interesting process involving wood, fire and missing brick), he had an enthusiasm for steam, engines, and “real” engineering. His healthy distaste for computers, though was not completely dismissive of them. My old housemate once asked me “why is he putting on that silly accent - nobody actually sounds like that” - but Fred did. Northen Pride!

Now I shall never have the chance to build a steam powered computer with him, something which I had planned on paper and was going to send to him to see what he thought.

Good luck God - theres a grimy, oily, Yorkshire accented man in overalls on his way to see you. There might be some smudging on the edges of the clouds.

DJ Derik in print! How h

Posted in Uncategorized at 6:14 pm by coldclimate

DJ Derik in print! How have I never heard of this man before?

I can only say how wonde

Posted in Uncategorized at 5:53 pm by coldclimate

I can only say how wonderful this man is. 74 years young and with a voice like gravel in a Jamacian barrel. Love live Dj Derik!
Oh - and he was better than Dj Yoda, who I went to see.

Im rubbish. The photo c

Posted in Uncategorized at 2:40 pm by coldclimate

Im rubbish. The photo can be found
here

Many many years ago my c

Posted in Uncategorized at 2:34 pm by coldclimate

Many many years ago my couosin spray painted a heart onto the road in Tooting. He did it so that his girlfriend would see it in the morning.

A couple of years later he sprayed another one onto a road in Wales when he proposed.

Yesterday I ran across the one in Tooting, its about 500 metres from where I now live! I post a photo as evidence. Shame Mr Blunkett would put Si in jail for criminal damage, but I think its fantastic.

well its been ages since

Posted in Uncategorized at 2:34 pm by coldclimate

well its been ages since i wrote to the world, and I have no excses as Ive spent hours and ors on okcupid.com, so its not like ive not been onlie at all. Tha said, work has been unfeasily busy. This was handover week and Ive spent three weeks waiting for it to go horribly, and it didnt. It went fairly smootly in fact. To be honest much better than i was expecting.

hat was until a world of other thigs went wrong, and I was the only man who knew what had hapened, or rather, I had done something and it had (allegedy) boken everything in a customer facing environment. So I wa in the the shit..

1 hours later, and with some very serious people involved, it turned out that I hadnt boken a damned thing. In fact, i had highlighted something which could have go very wrong later in the process and that what I had een doing was coincidenaly timed with sommething else that had gone wrong.

So, Ive got a bit of a bollocks (”Youve broken it”), worked my ass off to prove somebody else infac broke it (”fuckers!”) nd not got any thanks for beig part of the solution because Ive stirred up trobl and now were going to have to do a whole lot more work to get ack on trck now, so we dont go horribly off track at some later point.

By Thursday night when everybody went out and got twatted I was in such a bad mood I was on the virge of chinned several of the tossers who were shirking their jobs, so I grbbed Chinease on the way home, did my ironing, flirted mercilessly online, and went to bed. Wasted opertunity to get lashed and find some non-virtual sex? Possibly, but Im not sure I wouoldnt have chinned one of the little cunts who assured me that it was not their systems that were causing the problems (which it was)

So - I return home, or rather, to London, to play in the city, ge charged a fortune, and generally “relax”. Bring on the coding!

“Creating a sense of mor

Posted in Uncategorized at 2:11 pm by coldclimate

“Creating a sense of moral panic and taking away our civil liberties for the sake of the children is not the way forward.” says sane man.

So called terrorist Yass

Posted in Uncategorized at 9:51 am by coldclimate

So called terrorist Yasser Arafat is dead. He might well have been responcible for some terrorist actions (hijakings in the 70s) but I honestly believe that he was a man who truely beleivedin his cause and would have taken another path to obtain his objective if one were available. When he was first surrounded by tanks in his compound in Ramala (spelling??) I honestly expected his to come out with an AK in each hand, but he didnt.

Let the man be buiried when he wanted - this is a holy city for several religions lets not forget.

Hi Laura - queen of the

Posted in Uncategorized at 9:27 am by coldclimate

Hi Laura - queen of the ninjas.

Heres a first for me - a

Posted in Uncategorized at 8:58 am by coldclimate

Heres a first for me - a)Im being impressed by grammer b) And a US politician c) and Im blogging it.

This makes perfect sense.
“I know that you believe that you understood what you think I said, but I am not sure you realize that what you heard is not what I meant - Robert McCloskey, US State Department Spokesman

Well welldone to all tho

Posted in Uncategorized at 8:36 am by coldclimate

Well welldone to all those Americans who votes the moron back into power. I hope it all backfires on you and fire and dmanation rains from the skys.

And welldone to the morons who have choosen to award to �500,000,000 contract to Microsoft for providing their software for the next 9 years. You came so close een stating that Linux was “I viable alternative” and then you gave it to the muppets. Again. Full story over on zdnet.co.uk

Posted in Uncategorized at 12:00 am by coldclimate